The big 4-0

Did you all imagine the day you would turn 40? I know I certainly didn't. I don't even think I gave it much thought until January 1st, 2018. That made it official. That was officially the year I was turning 40. And once you start thinking about it, there is no turning back.

All my friends turning 40 and there I was, just waiting for my turn. Then August came. And I was depressed all day, every day for an entire month. And then some. It took me a while for all of it to just sink in... "Man, I'm 40. 40!!! This is not what I had envisioned for my life... Where did time go??"

Do you all feel the same? Like, one day you're in your 20s, and then you go to sleep and BAM! you wake up and you look in the mirror and gravity is definitely taking its toll on you... "Why, God?? Why??" I couldn't help but question. And, all of a sudden, there it was: my aha moment. 

"Okay, I'm 40. Now what? Do I want to throw the damn towel or do I want to just live my best life?" I chose the second one, for obvious reasons. And what do you do in life changing moments? To-do lists. First thing on my list: start a blog (actually, it was more go back to blogging). "Okay, I can do that. But what am I going to write about? What do people want to read about these days?" And, very quickly, I changed my thoughts to "what do I want to read about?". Because, yes, there is a gazillion blogs about lifestyle, and fashion, and beauty, and travel. But I'm 40. Am I really going for the same things as 20-year-olds? I don't think so.

So, yes, this is my (different) approach to being 40 and maybe not that fabulous. But certainly ready to still kick some ass. Enjoy the ride.